Tuesday, December 25, 2007 5:59 PM
communication and commitment

geek in pink! says (5:43 PM): would you communicate with your girlf if you dont see her for that particular day?
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:43 PM): like duh
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:43 PM): lol
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:44 PM): well if shes my gf..i'd call her everyday regardless if i see her or not..
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:44 PM): why ask?
geek in pink! says (5:44 PM): even if you were really busy that day and you're really tired?
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:46 PM): yea..theres no such thing as too busy even for a fone call
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:47 PM): and even like if u're tired..just giv a call and talk la..the moment u feel dreaded to call..that means sth is going wrong within the r/s
geek in pink! says (5:47 PM): really?
[s]^^ icyOrange^^[s]- i love Xmas..!= says (5:47 PM): yes

There are certain things that are important to me. Am i giving too much and you taking too much? Or am i just being unreasonable? Communication is very important to me. So is commitment. If you cant commit then why be with someone? I really dislikehate changes in certain aspects of my life. You know me, and you know i dont like changes. I really hope you dont impose anymore changes on me. I wont be able to take it. Why is it i always put a hundred percent into certain things but i dont get it back? I know it's hard but it doesnt mean you cant do it right? You will never understand why i want a hundred percent until you put in your hundred percent into something and dont get that back in return. Why cant anyone understand me?

Friendship is another thing. I know i cant expect a hundred percent. But im afraid that if i dont put in effort, i'll lose my friend. And i dont want my friend to drift away from me. But im always putting in effort while my friend isnt? It gets tiring after awhile. Does anyone really care about me at all?