Saturday, October 13, 2007 12:15 AM
the great escape

Dinner with the clique at pizza hut was great except i wish we could have taken photos. I love this clique because i can share anything with them and they'll listen and not discriminate me. They wont be judgemental and accept me for who i am, no matter what i am. I can share my burdens with them every three weeks. This once every three weeks dinner is important to me. It's the time i unwind and let out all my problems and free my shoulders from burdens. (:

Her words are still etched in my memory. I feel so disturbed and i wanna justify myself badly but then again i dont see a need to justify myself to people who are non significant. I really cant stand this feeling. Alright nevermind, i'll try to get over it. Im quite pissed about what happened and it's seriously all down to what he said. I feel kinda betrayed that what we talked about actually leaked out. So many emotions going on right now. bahhh, im so frustrated. My reputation!

You may think it's just a message but that message is more than a message. It's what makes you disrupt my life. Could you just stop walking in and out of my life as and when you please? Since you dont wanna care for me then just stay out. Just keep things to yourself. You had a choice and you made your choice. So like i said, lie in it. Dont wallow in self pity or whatever. If you want, do something if not stop complaining. And i know your life is really good without me and all, but like hello, some people unlike you have to try really hard to get over things so just stop hindering the process. But then again, who are you to me that i have to justify myself? Period.

Better days ahead please. This whole week was full of lethargy, crankiness, agitation and swear words. Definitely not a good week. Each week just gets worse and worse.

A song to end it all.

nickelback : feeling way too damn good
i missed you so much
that i begged you to fly and see me
you must've broke down
cause you finally said that you would
but now that you're here
i just feel like im constantly dreaming

cause something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good

for 48 hours i don't think that we left my hotel room
should show you the sights
cause im sure that I said that i would
we gotta make love just one last time in the shower

well something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good

and it's like, every time i turn around
i fall in love and find my heart face down and
where it lands is where it should
this time it's like
the two of us should probably start to fight
cause something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good, oh
feeling way too damn good

sometimes i think best if left in the memory
it's better kept inside than left for good
looking back each time they tried to tell me
well something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good

and it's like, every time i turn around
i fall in love and find my heart face down and
where it lands is where it should
this time it's like
the two of us should probably start to fight
cause something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good, oh
feeling way too damn good
oh, oh, feeling way too damn good

i missed you so much
that i begged you to fly and see me
you must've broke down
cause you finally said that you would
but now that you're here
i just feel like im constantly dreaming

cause something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good

and it's like, every time i turn around
i fall in love and find my heart face down and
where it lands is where it should
this time it's like
the two of us should probably start to fight
cause something's gotta go wrong
cause im feeling way too damn good, oh, oh
feeling way too damn good
(i missed you so much that i begged you to fly and see me)
feeling way too damn good
(i missed you so much that i begged you to fly and see me)