spoke to mei mei just awhile ago(:
maybe she's right, but then again, her situation was much more different than compared to mine.
i think it's time i climbed out of the dumb bottomless pit
i guess i have to stop living on this diet of hope bleahhhh
it's too much emotional burden, way too much what ifs and it's just not getting anywhere.
it's a living nightmare everday
there are too many uncertainties
i dont know how to feel nor how to carry on from here?
in order to carry on like this i need to be provided with a hint or at least a direction
but im not getting anything, instead im drifting further and further away
too much naive thinking
im going back to my old self
not going to be interested in anything i see