Wednesday, February 21, 2007 10:05 PM
struggling, yes! struggling!

ever felt like you made the wrong decisions?
ever heard something about you that you didnt wanna hear?
ever been pushed into something you really dont wanna do?
ever felt you were better off leaving things?
ever felt like digging a hole and sticking your head in it?
ever felt like a moron?

i've been stuggling for way too damn long
and im still struggling
even though the problem has been settled, something's amiss
i know it!
and it's not the kind of situations where you say "everything's gonna be fine."
because i know it wont be the same anymore
i knew i should have sticked to keeping my mouth shut
at least i can find comfort in the fact that it'll be okay and things will still be the same
i wished i had not listen to that piece of advice
now i know things are no longer gonna be the same
no matter how many times you say "i wont let anything change.", i know it will
that's the sad part of telling the truth
he's no longer going to talk to me like before or care about me like before
best part of it is that i look stupid and selfish
i was pretty affected by 3 things yesterday
and i still am
looks like my bad mood is here to stay

michelle left today
that dampens my mood a whole lot more
i didnt even get to say bye
i called yesterday night and this morning but she didnt call back?
i need to talk to her badly!

oh wells, no one will be able to understand me right now

one song to express it all

the used : all that i've got
so deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
off guard, red handed
now im far from lonely
asleep i still see you lying next to me
so deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me i..

i need something else
would someone please just give me
hit me, knock me out
and let me go back to sleep
i can laugh
all i want inside i still am empty
so deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me i...

i'll be just fine
pretending im not
im far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

i'll be just fine
pretending im not
im far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

i guess, i remember every glance you shot me
un-harmed, im losing weight and some body heat
i squoze so hard
i stopped your heart from beating
so deep that I didn't even scream f me, i..

i'll be just fine
pretending im not
im far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

i'll be just fine
pretending im not
im far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

and it's all that i've got
yeah, it's all that i've got
it's all that i've got
it's all that i've got
it's all that i've got!

so deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
so deep that i didn't even scream f me
i'll be just fine
pretending I'm not
im far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

i'll be just fine
pretending im not
im far from lonely
and it's all that i've got

and it's all that i've got
yeah, it's all that i've got